Invisible

My name is Abby and I am a Spoonie. That is a new introduction I can use now, unfortunately. My fatigue is intense and very real. This is a term that many people with chronic illness use. I remember one day I was wishing there was a way I could explain how little energy I have every single day. I stumbled upon the spoon theory by Christine Miserendino's, her and her friend were eating and she was trying to explain to her friend how little energy she has and how quickly it gets used. So she grabbed the spoons on the table and started explaining. I remember after reading her article I was relieved that there was finally a simple way to somewhat explain to other people. I also found out in the chronic pain/illness 'community' people use the word spoonie all the time or they use the hashtag #spooniesunite. I have always been so scared to use those words and hashtags on social media not because I was embarrassed but because I felt people wouldn't understand. I want to try to

Depression to me seems like a 'cuss word' sometimes.  The reason I say this is because it's a word no one seems to like to use or talk about (like you do with cuss words). The difference with depression though is that it shouldn't be viewed as a cuss word, people shouldn't be scared to bring it up or talk about it. It is a disease it shouldn't be something we feel embarrassed or ashamed of. In fact, I completely forgot to even mention it in my first blog when I was going through my diagnoses. Why? Honestly, I am not sure. I think it's something we don't think about very often because society hardly talks about it. In fact, I clearly remember sitting in Dr.Gota's office filling out all of the papers and on the depression one I scored high enough and was then diagnosed with moderate to severe depression with anxiety I remember looking at mom and saying depressed? I am not depressed I think I need to fill this out again. I was in complete denial that wh

I have decided to start a blog. I have heard from people with chronic illness that blogging can be such a great thing. I want to use this blog not for sympathy but for understanding and trying to raise more awareness. I will be honest before I got sick I didn't have much understanding of people with chronic illness I didn't realize how much your life changes and how hurtful and isolating it can be. I didn't know what they went through day after day until now. So by now your probably wondering what my chronic illness is. I have been officially diagnosed with a very severe case of Fibromyalgia. I have other diagnoses also {Hashimoto 's, high blood pressure, myofasical pain, cervicogenic headache, chronic daily headache, raynuads syndrome,fatigue} unfortunately for me that list will keep growing as I have been told by doctors. I also have many doctor appointments I consider it a huge break when I don't have a doctor appointment for weeks! I see many different doctors